Lately, my world has been turned upside down. Anxiety has been high, school isn’t helping with that, and my head has been pounding all week. We might get evicted, we have a sick dog, I haven’t been feeling up to doing anything lately. It is insane. I am forcing myself to even write this post. It seems like all my close friends (outside of my family that is close by) either hate me, or have just… left.
I really don’t know how to control my anxiety. It is getting harder to think about anything. My head is just so foggy right now, I just can’t. I feel sick to my stomach, probably a side effect to the anxiety. My head is spinning with all the worst possible things that could happen. I am listening to music right now, and all I hear is thump thump thump.
I don’t know what to do. I can’t think of any way to be useful. And, frankly, I don’t feel like anything I do will help in the slightest.
And, before I see anyone ask, no. I don’t have anxiety meds. I don’t have a therapist, nor do I want one. I know it would be better for me, but I get worse when I talk to people I don’t know. It is probably better off if I don’t bother them.
Anyway, that is what is up. Why I haven’t been posting. Probably why Rose hasn’t either. Trying to help me, I guess. I know you guys don’t care, but it kinda made me feel a bit better.